huhu..

hahaha...
tomolow i will start working...temporarily for 3 months, as usual...maternity replacement...huh!

how much i will be paid??!!!
RM700 nett per month..oklah!at least i can use it to pay all of my debts!warghhhh!no need begging others for money to pay all my 'hutangs'!

almost 2 month am jobless...and quite depressing..tension...boring!HOW PATHETIC i am??!!!

oredi bought a ticket to BANDUNG...this coming APRIL..a trip with wani, ijan and phatikura!sound interesting huh?!OF COURSE!but...do i have the money for BANDUNG??!!!!

i've tried in many companies here in BP...but am not saleable here...i've been called for an interview at Flextronics...Gelang Patah!but on the day...i didn't show up...because i keep on thinking that if am going to work in Gelang Patah..it's just the same if i worked in Kuala Lumpur..but it's Flextronics!this is one of my dream employers!it's a MNC!

i hate when thinking that i am now keep on depending on others...!am 26 & going 27...but what in life that i had??!!!i've got nothing...WAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!and looking at others...my friends...all of them with a great job...travelling around...have their own life...but ME??!!!still depends on others?what a shame??!!!!!GERAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dunno...am down right now!and i really hate my life...me, myself & i!

melaka trip 120108!woo~hoo

~in the car...the journey is about to begin~

not so many to tell...just look at the picture..

~my sister & the whole family~

~birdies~

~very very important person...the banker~

~bedah...the organizer~

i just grabbed it from *wain*

17 signs you like someone
this is how u know u like/love some1.

SEVENTEEN:
You look at their profile constantly.

SIXTEEN:
When you're on the phone with them
late at night and they hang up, you
still miss them even when it was just
two minutes ago.

FIFTEEN:
You read their Texts and Ims Over and
over again.

FOURTEEN:
You walk really slow when you're with
them.

THIRTEEN:
You feel shy whenever they're around.

ELEVEN:
When you think about them, your heart
beats faster but slower at the same
time.

TEN:
You smile when you hear their voice.

NINE:
When you look at them, you can't see
the other people around you, you just
see him/her.

EIGHT:
You start listening to slow songs
while thinking about them.

SEVEN:
They're all you think about.

SIX:
You get high just from their scent.

FIVE:
You realize you're always smiling when
you're looking at them.

FOUR:
You would do anything for them, just
to see them.

THREE:
While reading this, there was one
person on your mind this whole time.

TWO:
You were so busy thinking about that
person, you didnt notice number twelve
was missing

ONE:
You just scrolled up to check & are
now silently laughing at yourself.


NOW MAKE A WISH. YOU KNOW YOU WANT
TO.......



**this is somehow true...for me.huhu**

hatred!

eeeeeeeeeeeeeee....geram!
well it's me...i always regret everything that i've done..

just now...i was so 'gatal' search for this guy name...[u know who]...and the yahoo showed some matches..arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

there's a new myspace account...RENTAK...and it is his account...[another one...besides the one that i've ever known]..and...i was so 'gatal2' again read the comments...and found this girl...so..i double-clicked on her name to go to her page...and i saw this guy comments on her...with the word 'da*****'...the same one he used to call me...

now...i just realized that...am the one who 'perasan' with my so~called first love as the fact that he loves to use that word to every girls he knows out there!so..the moral is..don't you ever ever again 'layan' this type of guy if you're 'cepat perasan' one..hoho!

but i really salute him lar...as he is so determined to be rich...he involved with many kind of business...[i dunno what]...but it is some of his effort lar..that one i salute...but the way he treated a girl like me..shud not be followed!REMEMBER!wah..!

[too many exclamation marks!again]i like..

huhu..
=)

it's a sunny day...=)

hey there..
hehe..nothing much happened today...but since am in the mood to blogging, so i just write some of my activity today...quite boring but...boleh lar..

as usual i wake up to solat subuh...tho 'liat nak mamp', i still performed my responsibility as a muslim..then, went to bed again...hehe.that's me lar..

wake up at 10...i looked for mama, went to kitchen to breakfast..luckily mama prepared the breakfast...[if she mad at me...'lantaklah...dah la bangun lambat, cr breakfast sendiri!'...that was mama's line lar...everytime she mad at me..huhu]..then, watched tv...at 11 my sister's at the whole family arrived...the house was in chaos!as my nephews are so 'baik'!huh...everyone has things to do..

in the evening..accompanied mama to Prima Moda...to buy curtain..opss..actually to choose the right material and pattern for our new curtain..quite boring so i went to carrefour nearby to window shopping...nothing's interesting..went back and eat 'ubi rebus' with sambal tumis...walla~!

that's all..i need to catch CSI after this...bubye..=)

nothing~~

~meet our birthday boy~

owh...today is my nephew's 5th burfday...AHMAD AISH HAFEEY..so, my brother~in~law has planned to go to wetworld...bolehla..hehe...thou the place is not so happening, but we've tried our very besh to make it so happenning..and we did!woo~hoo!but...having a so~called picnic with my nephews was really a disaster to me...all 4 of them are really hyper...sometime it can be out of control..my sister was actually taking for granted on me...urgh!i hate u BEDAH!oklar...at least i've made someone happy..

i was actually hoping that the plan is canceled as it was raining heavily when we're on our way...butthen, it was only drizzling as we arrived at wetworld...!i was not in the mood since they messed up my room before we go to 'picnic'.alhamdulillah, its turned up to be ok...we were having a great time!hehe..

~this is us...with GBS pose~

4th January was my very~understanding~mate's birthday...but i didn't wish her...am i bad???
but it was not on purpose...i was in the middle of something on that day...i intended to call her and wish her...but i kept on postpone it...and at the end of the day i totally forgot about it...and this evening, i realized that i didn't wish her...huhu~

~meet phatikura~

but what to do...i've already missed the day...warghhhhhhhhhh!never mind...i'll call her tomorrow...[hope that i will not forget this]

meaning...this year we are getting older for another one year...26+1=27...27???!!!cannot believe this...!how time fly...hurmmm. [sangat sedih...huhuhu]...there's so much things that i didn't achieve yet...waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!

[not in the mood]....

bubye..=(

it's a new year!

~hope 2008 will full of colours~

to day is the first day of the new year...2008!
i hope everything to be okay throughout this year...

this morning i woke up at 6.30 to pray...then i sleep back again,hehe..since i got nothing to do..at 9.00 mama woke me up...ask me to accompany her to settle a few things..we had our breakfast at 'Warung Makcik Tipah'...her nasi lemak is superb!since i've never been there for ages...she tried to recall me..her daughter was my schoolmate in primary school...she get confused.huhu..so i told her...am a friend of Farina..owh, then she recalled...then she asked me..'kerja kat mane?'..i dunno, but i really hate to hear that kind of question...it makes me sick..i dunno..i just wanna scream!

mama answered everything..i didn't want to hear anything..so, i just sit and eat...i dun have the mood...since last night..i think too hard and soo much..i keep on comparing my life with others...i feel like LOSER!how pathetic i am...???!

then the whole day..i just keep quiet..i dun even respond to what mama said...i was so depressed...totally feel like loser...am jobless at my age...and i hate that...it's not as simple as imagine...it's hard for me to face it..

mama noticed my sadness..i didn't mean to hurt her..but i really not in mood...when, we arrived at home..i straight away went to my room and locked the door...i cried...cried...and cried...until i slept..

when i woke up just now...i feel relieved..maybe i need to let it out...but i dunno how..the best way is to cry lor...i hope i can face all these with patience..but who knows?we are human...