besok dah kena balek johor sebab ari senin ader monthly assembly.buhsan giler.

susah tau biler menumpang umah orang.walau pun dgn sepupu sendiri.care kiter berbeza.tension pun ader gak kekadang!semua benda nak harapkan aku.inilah akibatnye klau ader maid.anak2 keje memerintah je..sampai orang mcm aku yg bukan maid..[taula menumpang], dilayan seperti maid oleh anak2nye..so, moral of the story tuan2 & puan2..jgn ambil maid kerana boleh menyebabkan anak anda sangat spoiled nnti..wah!lgpun menyusahkan je sebenarnye..x payah2..eceh,tibe2 aku nnti ader maid ramai tau.huhu..

walaupun nona demam tetap nak masuk dlm gambar tau..lakonan

so tuan2 & puan2..one of the solutions not to hire a maid is..ask ur sister to babysit ur children.just like what ive been doing right now!muahahahahaha!

let me introdruce u..my chinese~look~friend..FATIMAH ZAHARAH


just spoke to her on the phone.its been long time we never chitchatting..she's been busy & me as usual waiting for her to call me..my bad, i know.


**big sigh**


she's going to get married next year..with DAUZ.alhamdulillah.i really happy for her. i really am.sad also..maybe.but still happy.

i dunno what to say..its not that im jealous or what..but i feel so sorry for my ownself..my very own.not anyone else.



for you..FATIMAH ZAHARAH
im happy for you..
i will definitely be there & hope everything will be okay.
u've been such a great friend.
u always there when i need u.
during good or bad time.
and i will never ever gonna forget u.
this is my promise..

BIG HUG for u my very true friend.
**XOXO**

my addiction..cant get my eyes off of it!haish..

ape yang hendak dibelogkan ini?

lets see..

ok..first, back from malacca after finishing the super~duper~sumpah~besh~giler course.the speaker was so AWESOME!!kudos to miss MONA BALKIS!clap..clap..clap!

during the course as usual la kan..meet new friends..bla~bla!somes are ok, somes are not.biase juge!

dapat naik Menara Taming Sari & Eye on Malaysia.too bad, it was rainy..[blaming the weather!!just like sammy vellu]haha..no pictures taken as it was at night.

thats it..

haha

daa~

today, woke up early in the morning.had some breakfast with mama.waited for the rest to malacca.arrived at AG Malacca at 915am.luckily the course not started yet.the speaker late!!

now..at BAYVIEW Hotel for TOT - Powerful Presentation Skills.hoping that the speaker know to tackle the audience especially me.

pose nona!!

and again!

again & again!!

these are soooo iressistible!!

yeay!!

.diriku sebagai babysitter.

.aleesya husna.

if & so

"there's someone i've been missing"

i thought this feeling will not last,it still there.it wont go away..i guessed.but i do hope, it will fade away.so i dun need to pretend that im cool enough with my own life.so i wont have any sleep deprivation every night.so i dun need to check on my phone every seconds.so i wont get any head~ache anymore.so i wont have any sweet dreams that will never come true.please..go away!if i could..ill scream to ur face and say it LOUD!but i dun have enough guts to do that.my ego keep on telling me that i still have pride.if u could only knew..how hurt it is.

yeay!!!my name on the cupcakes!

i couldnt believe it as i was joking with kak ghozal asking her to make cupcakes for me..



but when she gave me these..i was like

"kak ghozal..i luv u soooo much!"

i really didnt know what to say.

the best part was some of them showed a weird/jealous face..muahahahaha

dats the advantage to mingle with everyone surrounds you.

YEAY!!


kak ghozal..

a bunch of thanx from me

i really appreciate it

seriously..

the taste & decorations was okay for a last minute work.hehe.

i really really appreciate the effort..

doesnt matter it looks or tastes bad.



thanx again!

thanx also because u x jemu layan karenah i!
waaaaargh!!!!

kadang² bile difikirkan balik, betul gak kate² aceed tuh..

"patut ar ko x kawen jar..ko asek pk pasal orang je"

dulu aku mcam keep on denying ape yang aceed cakap..

"aku bukan mcm tuh ar aceed.dah orang mintak tolong, aku ulur la.."

tapi now..biler orang len keep on take for granted on me, aku mcm sedeh giler..waaaargh!xtau..maybe sebab the way aku act yang always ok je..sometimes maybe am too ignorant, but hey..im still human with feelings ok!!

tp aku x boleh lah nak selfish kan.betul x?adekah aku trlalu memikirkan pasal orang len?adakah?adakah?susah la nak cakap..kang aku bersore,ader je orang kecik ati..tp klau aku x bersore, aku yang giler sakit hati & jiwa!tolong!!!!!

i barely think on him when i was at home.since i got many things to do.but here..it is like thousand years to finish the whole week without thinking on him.please..im sick,tired,lethargic with this feeling..i really am!it is like am losing hopes!

hey there.

just want to share something with u..

i got this new hobby..

cutie plants on cutie pot!

yeay!

cant believe that am starting to collect them..

***sigh***

please give me strength to face it!

..............................

bile kiter start to love someone yang kiter kenal as a friend more than a friend,banyak perkara yang akan berubah.antaranya...

1. when u text him, he didnt reply asap..u will act like cacing kepanasan.asek nak tgk henfon je kan.padahal..before this x heran pun die reply ke x.apelagi if he didnt reply at all..trus sakit hati,maki hamun yang ntah pape syok sendiri.
2. every minute pun nak tgk henfon..ader x msg from him..?bangun tido tgk henfon dgn harapan ader msg from him..tp x de jugak.KUCIWA!
3. bile bukak fb or fs..sebok nak tgk profile die kan.padahal dah tau dah that he will not really care about al this social network.
4. then sebok nak tgk sape kawan die..all comments from him,who did he comments..everything la..kepoh!
5. dan lagi when u read his comment on a girl..mule la kan.JEALOUS!!!lalalalalalalala..
6. bile face to face berlagak macho..ader sedikit awkward tp boleh cover lg.

dah pernah pun merasa all those things.tapi still nak terjebak lagi.sayang tau.nanti hilang lagi satu kawan.caner ni?maybe sekejap kot ni..[wah..pujuk diri sendiri].syok sendiri la tuh!

yeay!!!dapat mc..thanx to Dr. Ramli sebab bg mc..

i was advised by him to remove the "fibroadenoma" .muahahahaha..

called Kak Izan (my insurance agent) on how to claim the insurance if i make the surgery at specialist..

so she told me that i just need to pay the deposit and the rest of it the hospital will deal directly with PruDential..but i stil need to send a copy of the bill the her as a proof.

okay..that will b okay.so this weekend am going to Pantai to see how.

enuff on that

ive been thinking a lot these days..

about that matter..

and i think i better not to think about it anymore..

as i know that is so uncertain..

and i dun wan to get hurt again..

yang syok sendiri..

wakakakakakaka!

but frankly i do jealous to see most of my friends have their own family..

with kid~s,husband..

but this is fate..

and its not in my hand..

maybe one day..

so now..

i just sit tight..with effort of course

do my things..

pray for the best..

prepare for the worst..

and hope everything will be okay..

amiiin..

sumpah am really hoping this will happen!haha..all the bus tickets to JB are sold out!!yeay!thanx also to mr sinus as he could be the reason for me to get the MC.lalalalala..but hati still uncomfortable.still the same thing.this is happen when u still single at this age.SINGLE & available.if u single but not available is ok i guessed.because people would know that u already have the guy but still ooking or waiting the right time to settle down,rite?

mama told me as i arrived at home yesterday.something that might giving me some hope but at the sometime it such a "what!that feeling will come again!".and yess.that was very true!then i will be utterly fool day-dreaming like hell!!demm..i dun like it.but still it oredi there!

i really really hope that this wont last..but hey am a girl not yet a woman!haha..its the other side part to start it.GOD please!and you please respond!so that i wont look like a crazy woman,so that i can stop answering people,so that i dun have to hide it from everyone,so that i can freely tell everyone!please!please..and please!

today..

sinus attack

dem!

that feeling still there

better make myself busy

rather thinking all those uncertain things on that feeling

so..

watch CSI!!

muahahaha

i really hate when this feeling come

i know it's normal

especially at my age

but i really hate it

it makes me sick

it makes me tired

and am totally exhausted with it

i really need some guidance here

i hope it wont last

and end with a good feeling

amin