i really do not know what the hell am i doing
im totally stupid and crazy for waiting and loving someone who dont even care about me
i know
not everyone i love
will love me back
but

why it is so complicated?

maybe there are some reasons why i still not over him
is it because i cant or is it because there is no one else?

im sick & tired for being sick & tired

or
should i be anti-love?

or
would i dare letting it show?



yeah..i wish

ive recovered for a while
but all the sudden
it come back

though at that time i always said

a friend is all you'll ever be
but im always secretly wish
the way u want her would be the way u want me

and i had succeed to hide it

now?

my mother always says that most of my friends are so stylo..but not me.haha..mesti korang bangga kan?menyampah.but that's not the point.the point is they never make a rule or any criteria to befriend with them like "u have to be as stylo as us...baru u boleh join us".never!!!as i can easily make friends, so are they because we dont judge people from their appearance...ada la sket2 kutuk orang punye style, but that was for fun and that's it!!but if someone like to befriend with us we'll welcome it.BUT..do not mess with us!!some of us might want to make friend because of they have their own agenda.i dont know..maybe they want to be glamour or what, to dress like someone, to get someone...whatever!!which is not right as they are not sincere in their friendship.true friends will always be on your side in whatever situation you are in.happy & sad.luckily i have that kind of friends and mish them so much. i thank you all and im so grateful to know u guys. they might be seen as gila-gila, sexy or whatever but they are so kind hearted. seriously...i dont mind what others gonna say, but im so proud to know them and to admit that they are my friends!!!ok..jangan nak kembang sangat!!!

::dia ni penghibur hati semua orang::

::dia ni sangat pemurah dan suka tolong orang walaupun selalu berlagak brutal::
yess..she's married & that her husband.huh..

::dia ni kecik je tapi garang, kerex plak tapi dia memang baik hati::


i really mish you guys!!
thanx for always be there

XOXO

lets just fall in love~again



you belong with me

XOXO

lately, if u guys notice..and i bet u guys did, the news is on the same matters. murder. Ah Long. politics. and all that. buhsan kan?buang bayi...is like a must topic in the news. where the hell is their humanity?did the leave it somewhere?i really dont understand human nowadays. baby is the most cutest creature on earth, how could they just dump them?ya ALLAH..at least leave it somewhere at mosque or in front of people house, but dont, please dont dump them at the garbage, drainage or river, flush them in the toilet...haishhhh.that is so wrong!!!totally wrong!!obviously u have made mistake and dont double it. i rather now watch other programme than watching the news. it will make my heart ache.

i was dreaming something funny yesterday.haha..sumpah funny. told mama about it. mama pun gelak. people said if we dream on something and we can remember the dream, it will never come true!so..that's it!!heeeee...bai~

XOXO

resting at home for almost three weeks, i was accompanied by Hagemaru, Asarichan, Fukuchan, Oprah, Kardashian, Giuliana & Bill, Putera Shazlan, Kimora, Cahaya, Alisa and many more. thanx a lot to Astro for keep on repeating the same tv programme for a quite long period.huhu.believe me.. i can watch the all three CSI, i can watch Kardashians' Marathon the whole day until my back pain.haha..what to do..i couldnt go out as i cant..well, u know im supposed to stay at home to rest.that is why i keep on watching television and keep on exploring the programme.haha..

but lately..i dont really know, is it because of im~getting~older~the~hormone~is~not~stable~as ~said~by~doctor, ive become so sensitive.even when i was watching some kind of drama pun, i can simply cry..haiya.what a shame?!!x maxho ar bai?!!!seriously..im so touching-touching now u know..i just noticed when i was watching the finale episode of CSI where dr Jekyll has been tracked and he told the CSI the reason why he killed those people.my tears simply went out..cant u imagine??!!it just CSI!!and i was crying watching it?!!duuhhhh..owh but then, unfortunately dr langston was stabbed by nate haskell..so the possibility for grissom to come back is high!!weee~huuuu!!!baru la besh!!grissom is my best CSI!!!i dont like horatio..because he like macho-cool-with-his-sunglasses-but-lazy-to-work-at-the-lab man..not good ye!!new york team is better..for me.

another thing is this should not be blogged as this showed that im supposed to hate him and this also was officially shown that how much pain ive feel after officially he changed the status...kan?and then i keep on blogging the same thing.haiyaaaa...dun have la.its simple.he has your number, he knows your house, he can buzz you when you are online, he can text you after he changed again his status...if he really wants you seriously.BUTTTTT..did he ever do one of those thing said above?!!!!!NOPE!!!so..what the heck uve been thinking of him like he is meant for you!!!!come on la..PUHHHLEASSSE!!let him be..love rally makes people so dumb..even dumber than you can imagine.if he is my destiny..fine, i will accept it.but i wont waiting like crazy for him no more...no baby no!!!ok..cCHILL!!

after the operation and all the check-ups..i realised that ive been eating so unhealthily.doc said that we, human now has a different eating behaviour.which i agreed with him.nowadays has so many fast foods and due to our busy~ness we keep on eating them as it is so FAST!!but the ingredient or content of the food also will make our body so FAST collapse...to make it short, im gonna mish you McD, KFC, Cool Blog and others. we cannot see too often,maybe once in a moon...yess, to leave you is a tough decison for me!!!huhuhu..goodbye..welcome OAT!!Kellogs K!!bole caye ke?!!huh..


the above pix is my primary class mate..Faryna Mohd Khalis.nampak x selempang pink tuh?!!!!nampak x?!!!ANC ok?!!and graduating for MASTER!!!wallawehhhh!!!salute babe!!!im so proud of you.she was MASTERing in AD..who cares?!!ingat buat AD pun senang2 ke dapat ANC??i bet it was so worth for you !!!and for sure your mother so proud of you.anak makcik tipah jual nasi lemak tau!!dont play play ha!!!!faryna..the one that i know was and i believe she still creative.a very shy-shy girl.soft spoken.and humble.but now she proved to the world..[wah!!!over] that she had succeed to achieve her dream with her passion.yessss...art is of course her passion...as long as i can remember, she always received credits for her drawings while we were in primary. CONGRATS!!!nnti aku datang kedai mak ko makan nasi lemak!!hahaha..to see people achievements is great.but to compare is not great but pain.huhu..so, dont compare, but celebrate with them..hopefully you can achieve it yourself!!but just sitting and blogging will never bring you anywhere..it must come with effort!!!x kan x tau kot~!!!!so..start study.but first pay your exam fees..haha.i bet the syllabus has changed.demmit..why la they keep on revising the syllabus??cant you just stick to the old one?!!haiyaaa...so i can complete it faster!!!hahaha..so not related!!!gambatte!!!ok..stop blogging.start studying...bai~

owh..
last but not least..
goodbye streamyx!!!
sorry to dump u!!but u behave so bad!!and ive found ur replacement.

XOXO