back from outstation.batu pahat pun..kecoh je lebey!monday is like the most laziest day to me!buhsan tahap cipet.huhu.
ade beberapa perkara need to be settled.ade beberapa perkara jugak yang need to be planned properly.i dunno.too many things inside my head.lets start from the top..early of this year, i've successfully joined the pre marriage course as my target is to settle down this year.haha..at least, i have a target babe!but now it seems like it cannot be fulfilled as no one do approach me until now..pity me.sob..sob.no lar..i dun mind.it is fate.
i strongly believe in karma.i believe that maybe my jodoh is lambat because of might be something that i've done wrong in the past.i also believe this is one of DUGAANNYA.but it does not mean that i dun need to put some effort to cari the right person.tapi..am not that type of person.not that x mo cari..tp my self-esteem is so LOW.
mama pun macam dah x larat.dah buhsan dah tanye.huhu.am kind of afraid to be single forever.WAAAAAAARGH!x mo..sometimes klau pk banyak sangat bole jadi sawan.boleh plak pk maybe jodoh ku sudah meninggal,so i can only see him im heaven..BOLEY?stress jugak kekadang..tp buat BODO lar..just go with the flow..
middle of this year..baru mcm terpk that my life is totally not for me..my life is for others.everthing that i've planned semua mcm out of order.my ambitions are all gone.no more dreams to work at KILANG.huhu..i have nothing..i do have nothing.car?house?NOTHING!!all i've got is W890i..duhhh.my study was unfinished.i intended to finish it..but mcm x de kena mengena dengan ape yang aku buat now.dan x worth pun..mase amek course ni kan cita2 ku tinggi.xpela..redha je la dgn ape yang ade.dan i reall dun understand why some people keep complaining in their life for only certain things that they can't get.dun care.keep praying i will meet someone who will guide me and take a very good care of me.till death do us apart.amin..
