22 December 2012

Alhamdulillah...
bangun hari ini sebagai isteri kepada seseorang..
sesungguhnya JODOH itu adalah RAHSIA ALLAH..
tiada siapa yang mengetahuinya..
tiada siapa yang dapat mengjangka..
semua atas urusanNYA..

redha dengan ketentuanNYA..
semoga dapat menjadi ISTERI yang baik di sisiNYA..

insyaAllah.
amin..

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13 December 2012

"of all people in this world...
you found SOMEONE who will prove to you that you can be his everything in front of everyone..
SOMEONE who will hold your hand, be with you through ups and downs..
SOMEONE who will be your bestfriend and at the same time your lover..
SOMEONE who will prove to you that you're worth everything..
SOMEONE who will always see you as you are..
SOMEONE whom GOD has given to you and who will change your perspectives..
SOMEONE who you never expected to fall for.."

ALHAMDULILLAH..
i've found my SOMEONE..

#7daystogo

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08 December 2012

tinggal lagi lebih kurang 14 hari..
memang dah bercampur baur perasaan..
masing masing dah mula bertanya..

"bila start cuti?"

jujurnya..
memang tak ada dalam kepala otak lagi bila nak cuti..
serabut sangat..
baru tahu macam mana rasanya perasaan bila dah nak dekat ni..

ya..
semoga segala urusan berjalan dengan lancar..
semoga semuanya dipermudahkan olehNYA..

amin..

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29 November 2012

sakit yang amat..
bila dituduh sebegitu..
hanya kerana sesuatu yang kecil..

sakitsangat!

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23 November 2012

jgn memandang remeh bencana yang menimpa org lain..
kerana mungkin esok lusa..
bencana itu mungkin menimpa kita..

jgn sombong dengan kesenangan yang kita ada..
kerana mungkin esok lusa..
kesenangan itu bukan milik kita..

jgn kedekut untuk memberi pertolongan..
kerana takut kita kekurangan..

walhal semua yang kita rasa adalah milik kita..
bukan milik kita..

sungguh kita manusia suka memunya..
lupa akan PEMILIK harta yang kita pinjam..

ya ALLAH ya tuhanku..
memang kerdil hamba ciptaan MU ini..
KUATkanlah HATI ini..
TABAHkanlah HATI ini..
TETAPkanlah HATI ini..

amin.

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20 November 2012

genap 30 hari lagi..
pada usiaku 31 tahun..

#neves
#gembira
#sedih
#letih
#bercampurbaur

semoga semua urusan dipermudahkan olehNYA..

amin.

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18 September 2012

counting weeks..

13 weeks to the day..

*semogasegalaurusandipermudahkan*

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13 September 2012

he may not look HANDSOME..
he may not be RICH..
he may not have a BIG car..
or a BIG house..
he may not have a BIG designation..
or a BIG salary..
he may not the one that ive DREAMED to be with..

but..
he is the one who LOVE me the most..
he LOVES me more than he LOVES himself..
i dont have to impress him to LOVE me..
he LOVES me because of me..
im THANKFUL enough to have him in my life.
and i HOPE he will GUIDE me to the RIGHT path..
ALLAH knows the BEST.

thank you ALLAH.

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30 July 2012

hello there..
its been awhile..
and my life has totally changed..

Alhamdulillah..
and i always pray for the BEST!

thank you..
thank you so much!
love is in the air!!

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21 June 2012

Alhamdulillah..
one step taken..

ok..
i know..
i took ample time to find guts..
but at least i've found it..

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15 June 2012

saya dah nak PUTUS HARAPAN..
tapi ada insiden yang telah memberi saya HARAPAN baru..
betul la..
sebelum munculnye PELANGI..
mesti HUJAN yang menCURAH dahulu..

jadi sekarang saya sudah ada MR R saya..
saya tidak perlu berAWAK dgn mr R saya lagi..

terima kasih sangat kepada yang memBANTU..
syukur ALHAMDULILLAH..

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12 June 2012

saya rindu AWAK sangat-sangat..
sampai demam AWAK tau..
for sure AWAK tak tau..

AWAK kat mane?
susahnye nak nampak AWAK sekarang?

penatla macam ni..
AWAK tau x mcm mane penatnya saya?
tau x?!!!!

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04 June 2012

stumbled into something at FB which is so K.L.M.J..
and i just smirked..

is that mean ive moved on..
or it means nothing..

and i miss YOU!
*cisnowar*

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01 June 2012

assalamualaikum..

i saw YOU after two weeks..
and i was like forget all the line that i planned to say it to YOU..

after a week not seeing YOU..
Ive set in mind that YOU're not meant for me..
and i hope i would not see YOU again..

but today..
YOU just paste a smile again on my face..
i hope it will last..

ya ALLAH..
show me the way..

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21 May 2012

no one knows the real me
no one knows how good i am pretending to be happy while inside im not..
no one knows how many time i sat alone in my room and cried..
no one knows how many times i lost hope..
no one knows how many times ive had to hold back the tears..
no one knows how many times ive been let down..
no one knows how many times im about to snap but i didnt for the sake of others..
no one knows the thoughts inside my head whenever im sad..
no one knows how secretive i am..
no one knows me and thats what i hate the most..
no one knows but ALLAH..

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16 May 2012

hi AWAK..
sehat?

kesiannya..
cakap sorang2..
hahaha..

tp x kiralah..
saya nak share gak dgn AWAK..

these few days ive been busy with loads of work..
as usual..
ok..make it short..
one of my colleague took an emergency leave..
and because of that i had to cover her to be a speaker for our refresher course..
covering others was not a BIG deal..
what matters are when i've planned so many things to be done and suddenly it just ..."puffff" ..

ya..i know..
we could only plan and the rest is on HIM...
but...
ok no but..

the colleague who took an emergency leave then text me apologizing for the troubles she caused & thanking for covering her..
she also said that..
if we had something to say or not satisfy with someone..
we should confront him/her..
dont talk-talk behind!!
yess..
i admit..
i talked behind her!!
my bad..
ive text her for apologizing..
i dont know whether she will accept it or not..
what do YOU think?

so the point is..
THAT'S SO MY BIGGEST WEAKNESSES!!!
i have no GUTS to confront people..
if not i dont have to write all of these to share my problems with YOU here..
LAME!!

but a friend of mine..
advised me to tell YOU the truth..
to not wait untill the end..
to make a move..
she really put some spirit on me..
FIND A WAY or FADE AWAY!!
i have to at least make YOU know my existance & the fact that i LIKE YOU!!
so..
ive found some ways..heee,,
but WHERE ARE YOU?

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14 May 2012

i saw YOU..
i saw YOU..
i saw YOU..
and i saw YOU..
early in the morning!!

YOU just make my day!!

from far..
& i knew it's YOU..
we're in the same BOX..
but i have to act cool..
though my heart race..
if only i could turn to YOU..

dont ask me why..
maybe YOU've got that ONE THING!!

wah..
feeling one direction..blurgh..

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12 May 2012

Hari ini dia mungkin tidak bertudung, esok lusa mungkin dia adalah yang paling IKHLAS menutup auratnya…

Hari ini dia mungkin seorang yang kaki mencarut,
esok lusa mungkin dia adalah yang paling LEMBUT bicaranya…

Hari ini dia mungkin seorang yang ingkar kepada Allah SWT,
esok lusa mungkin dia adalah yang paling istiqomah melaksanakan QIYAMULLAIL kala kita semua sedang lena…

Kita tidak pernah tahu dan tidak akan tahu.
Tugas kita bukan me’NERAKA’kan orang.
Tetapi…mengajak manusia ke jalanNYA dan saling doa mendoakan….

Jangan HINA permulaan seseorang..kerana kita TIDAK tahu bagaimana pengakhirannya..

walaupun kita BETUL,
kita tiada hak untuk menghukum & memandang rendah orang yang SALAH,
kerana suatu ketika dahulu kita juga pernah berada di tempat yang SALAH.

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08 May 2012

i miss YOU again..

and as usual..
i hate it..

can anyone please tell my unknown-man that i miss him so much?

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02 May 2012

harini..
pagi-pagi lagi saya dah nampak kelibat kereta AWAK..
saya dah dapat dah nombor plat kereta awak..
which is JxD 4xx5
pastu saya nampak AWAK..
walaupun hati saya berdebar-debar tapi saya tidak seEXCITED seperti biasa..

sebab saya dalam mood terkejut & sedih..
exhousemate saya NUR HIDAYAH ESHAK telah kembali ke RAHMATULLAH semalam jam 4 petang..
saya & kawan-kawan semua terkejut..
yela..
AJAL MAUT di tangan TUHAN..
kami redha..
cuma masih dalam keadaan terkejut...
ALHAMDULILLAH semua urusan pengebumian dipermudahkan..
semoga rohnya berada di kalangan orang-orang yang soleh..
amin..

saya harap sekiranya saya pulang ke pangkuanNYA sebelum sempat saya kenal AWAK..
AWAK akan baca semua benda
mengarut yang saya tulis pasal AWAK..

sesungguhnya janji ALLAH itu MUTLAK..
tidak akan AWAL atau LEWAT walau sesaat pun..

**being a stalker as my part time job is totally not me.seriously..but im doing it NOW!!WTH?!!

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27 April 2012

yeay!!
saw u & i was acting seriously like a STALKER!!

oh my gucci!!
i felt so stupid..
but i managed to snap this..haha



hee~~

thank YOU ALLAH..
im blessed..

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26 April 2012

"dalam bag pun ade bag ea?"
"itulah orang perempuan"

abang cafe tegur aku..

ha'ah..
memang pun..
to be true i wasnt like this before..
i mean "dalam bag pun ade bag" punya type..
since i was a little bit tomboy..
i didnt like to bring many things along..
using men's wallet..feeling kinda cool as it looked simple..
and to see my ladylike friends bring along those make up bag in their handbag make me feel so.."banyaknye brg ko bawak?!!"

but yaaah..
people changed..
slowly i had interests on girly stuff..
from wallet to purse..
from sneakers to pump..
from blue-ish to pink-ish..
from bagpack to sling bag..
and much more obviously..

if before packing for holiday..
my bag would be the lightest..
but now..
my bag still lighter than theirs..
but heavier than mine before..

haha..
how time flies..
i miss the GOOD OLD days..

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25 April 2012

i miss YOU so much..

i hate it because ive promised not to have that feeling on YOU..

im sorry..
i just cant..

terribly me..

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20 April 2012

hello there..
its been awhile..

my life has been so busy lately..
but im grateful..
at least i have work to do..
rather than those who are jobless..

and one thing..
i didnt even have time to think on crappy matters..

ALHAMDULILLAH..
thank YOU ALLAH..

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03 April 2012

when most of my friends are busy on their wedding or engagement's preparations..
or busy taking care of their children..
im still like this..
alone..

i dont want to waste time for him who is not meant for me..

i want to be the best for my future husband..
so im trying my best preparing myself..
and i hope he is doing the same..

"how are you today my dear..??"

we will meet soon..
insyaAllah..
i believe ALLAH is planning the very BEST for us..
aminn..

and to YOU..
im not giving up..
i just realized that if YOU are really meant for me..
YOU are meant for me..
i dont have to waste time thinking of YOU..
i felt so stupid for being so obsess on YOU..
i dont even know your name..
YOU dont even care to noticing me..
im afraid that i'll regret to have YOU that i once eagerly to be with..
sanely..
i've decided just to go with the flow..
cool huh~~
well yaa..
half heartedly hope that YOU will read all this crap..

till then..


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29 March 2012

im wasting too much time thinking of YOU when i have nothing to do..
and it's tiring..
too bad i kind of know that i will never be with YOU..
yet im too in love to let it go..
i dont even know your name..
and i only have a very little tiny memory with YOU..
yet its like ive been knowing YOU so well..

instead of telling YOU how i feel..
i keep on posting it here..
i dont know how..
but i wish and hope that YOU know how i feel..

YOU maybe not care at all..
or maybe YOU already have someone special..
but as long as im not seeing YOU with other person..
i believe YOU are available..
though, half of me say vice versa..

to see YOU for a minute or even less..
will make me smile all day long..
but to miss YOU makes me sick..
and to have all the UNSAID feelings hurt me so badly..

i just have to remain believe..
and have faith..
insyaAllah..
will you?

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27 March 2012

i saw YOU like 3 seconds..
and YOU just made my day..

tenchiu

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25 March 2012

"cintailah seseorang itu secara DIAM-DIAM..
seperti kisah cinta SUCI..
saidatina FATIMAH & saidina ALI..
yang ALLAH pertemukan jua akhirnya..
kerana sesungguhnya mereka yang mencintai seseorang secara diam sebenarnya sedang BERJIHAD..
berjihad menentang KEHENDAK HATI..
menahan NAFSU diri.."

insyaALLAH..

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23 March 2012

i saw u just now..
you looked pinkish..
but i wasnt excited at all..
yet i felt down..
and my heart said you are already taken..
im not suitable for you..
there's no way you will look at me again..

but the other side said..
if i dont try to ask, i 'll never know..

if only i have the guts to ask you..
will you talk to me again?
no one knows..except HIM.

have faith..
BELIEVE.

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09 March 2012

dont blame others if they do not believe you when you always take everything into joke even it comes to serious matter..

but we as human always see others fault rather than ours..

i may not to be seem as a serious person but when it comes to something which is sensitive or serious i could automatically tune into the situation..

yes there's time i might laugh at others fault, mistakes but i didnt exaggerate it..

i dont blame others to dislike me..
but i do regret when those who dislike and talk behind my back ask for my favor..
they just like befriend with me for benefit..
and i totally say no those who will only befriend with me when their so called BFF is not around..

sometimes i can take it..
but sometimes it hurt so much..
and sometimes i just told myself not to be like them by acting the same..

im not perfect..
i made mistakes..
and i try my best to learn from it..
to be a better person..
insyaAllah..

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07 March 2012

*senyumsepanjanghari*

satu..
jumpa old friend..
which is now konfem old already..
sembang x hengat walaupun kat tgh2 laluan..
si Rizal Fazly yang forever jaki dgn wa..
also husband to Normanita..
kind-hearted couple ive ever met..
dah 3 dah anak korang..
tp sama je perangai..
"aku hampir x kenal ko jar sebab ko pakai baju kurung"
harem pants punye Rizal.

dua..
SAYA NAMPAK AWAK!!!!
yeay!!!
tp slack ar nampak time tgh borak sakan dgn si rizal..
never mind..
i still can notice you..

^^

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02 March 2012

im hurt...so much
its easy for people to keep on talking on reasons why im still not married while they are not even in my shoes..
jodoh pertemuan di tangan Tuhan..
if my future husband can be bought at Giant for example, that you can question why i still not married..

it hurts why someone say like
"ha tula mak suruh kawen, x nak kawen'
WTH is that?
ive never said that i dont want to get married..
who dont want to get married?
it's a sunnah..

dont just say without considering others..
it might hurt others if it comes to sensitive matter..
muke cantik tp kurang budi bahasa sgt merugikan..
beauty can deceived..
dont judge the book by its cover is so true..

im thankful for what i have..
i may not have beautiful face & fair skin..
but i know how it feels when someone says on your ugliness..
i may not have a lot of money..
so that i will appreciate every single thing i earned..
for all the weaknesses that i have..
it makes me closer to ALLAH..

and i believe the BEST is yet to come.
insyaAllah..

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29 February 2012

today is a leap day..

but its just as the same as my boring day..


ive been too much wandering these few days..

tired for not having enough rest..

i guessed..


i really hope tomorrow will be better than today..

i believe ALLAH has something better for me..

insyaAllah..


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28 February 2012

i hate feeling down for no reason..
i dont want it to be there yet it sinking deeply inside..

i hate those teasing questions ..
asking me 'when to get married?'

i hate when they keep on saying im choosy..
the reason i am still single..
you wouldnt know the feeling when you want it so badly yet you cant have it..

i hate when i want to cry yet i cant..

i hate when i saw YOU yet im not excited..
i hate that very much..

FIX YOU is so ME!!
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27 February 2012



im back y'all!!
hello Malaysia..
miss u a lot!!

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13 February 2012

lalalalalala..

saw u..
and u just made my day!!

*smilealldaylong*

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10 February 2012

WHEN IM MAD..

sometimes i say things that i dont even mean..
sometimes i say things that i do mean..
sometimes i say things that i end up regretting..
i dont think what im saying..
i just say..
i just blurt it out..

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07 February 2012



sometimes i am THOUGHTLESS..
but most of the time i OVERTHINK..

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03 February 2012

saw u!!!

^^

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31 January 2012

yesterday..
my boss approached me and started his story..

"aritukan sy jumpe kawan lame sy..dah kawen.awak tau die kawan dgn spe?"

like i care to whom his friend should marry.

"kawan facebook die!!!"

ok boss..
its not a BIZARRE news anyway..
banyak kot..
untill he said this to me..

"pe lagi hajar..awak cr2la kat facebook tu"

DANG!!!!

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26 January 2012

life changes every minute of everyday..
you LOSE friends..
you GAIN friends..
you REALISE that your friend wasnt ever really your friend..
and that person you used to HATE can make a really GOOD friend..

you LOOK for love..
you LOSE love..
you REALISE that all along you've been loved..

you LAUGH..
you CRY..
you LAUGH so hard that you CRY..

you do this..
you do that..
you really wish you hadnt DONE that..
you LEARN from that & are GLAD that you did..

you have your UPS..
you have your DOWNS..
you see GOOD movies..
you see BAD movies..

you look at others and you wish you were them..
you then realize who they are & GLAD that you are you..

you LOVE life..
you HATE life..
in the end you just find yourself to be living life no matter what is thrown at you..

fin.

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19 January 2012



my BABY just born..

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18 January 2012

alamak..
my BOSS just knew that i have a blog..
there goes my so-called SECRET!!!

but i dont think he would read..
oh please!!
or else he will BAHAN me kaw-kaw!!

no...he wont have time!!
NO..NO..NO

hee~~

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16 January 2012



meet NEA ADREEA HUMYRA..
while the rest of the siblings' names begin with A & H..
hers begins with N..
as a symbolic to the last child was born in my sister's family..

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13 January 2012



i am ME..
no one else is ME..
NO ONE..
just ME..

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12 January 2012

these few days were just my BAD days..
well, everyone has their ups & downs..
so do i..

on 10.01.2012, my fifth niece was born..
a new member to the family..
she is still nameless by the time i wrote this..
but my sister has gathered some names to choose..
i hope her choice will suit miss baby..

till then..

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09 January 2012

saya RINDU awak..
kenapa susah nak NAMPAK awak..

awak kat mana??

.......................

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05 January 2012

patut la mata saya terkedip-kedip selama beberapa hari ni..
saya nak NAMPAK awak rupanya..
jumpa di tempat yang biasa..
tapi jauh..
saya nampak awak sipi je..
sat je..

awak nampak kusut..
awak ada masalah ke?
awak rindu saya ea?
lalalalalalala...

ye..
saya terlalu berimaginasi di situ..
tak apalah..
harap-harap dapat NAMPAK awak lagi..

babai..

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