no one knows the real me
no one knows how good i am pretending to be happy while inside im not..
no one knows how many time i sat alone in my room and cried..
no one knows how many times i lost hope..
no one knows how many times ive had to hold back the tears..
no one knows how many times ive been let down..
no one knows how many times im about to snap but i didnt for the sake of others..
no one knows the thoughts inside my head whenever im sad..
no one knows how secretive i am..
no one knows me and thats what i hate the most..
no one knows but ALLAH..

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hi AWAK..
sehat?

kesiannya..
cakap sorang2..
hahaha..

tp x kiralah..
saya nak share gak dgn AWAK..

these few days ive been busy with loads of work..
as usual..
ok..make it short..
one of my colleague took an emergency leave..
and because of that i had to cover her to be a speaker for our refresher course..
covering others was not a BIG deal..
what matters are when i've planned so many things to be done and suddenly it just ..."puffff" ..

ya..i know..
we could only plan and the rest is on HIM...
but...
ok no but..

the colleague who took an emergency leave then text me apologizing for the troubles she caused & thanking for covering her..
she also said that..
if we had something to say or not satisfy with someone..
we should confront him/her..
dont talk-talk behind!!
yess..
i admit..
i talked behind her!!
my bad..
ive text her for apologizing..
i dont know whether she will accept it or not..
what do YOU think?

so the point is..
THAT'S SO MY BIGGEST WEAKNESSES!!!
i have no GUTS to confront people..
if not i dont have to write all of these to share my problems with YOU here..
LAME!!

but a friend of mine..
advised me to tell YOU the truth..
to not wait untill the end..
to make a move..
she really put some spirit on me..
FIND A WAY or FADE AWAY!!
i have to at least make YOU know my existance & the fact that i LIKE YOU!!
so..
ive found some ways..heee,,
but WHERE ARE YOU?

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i saw YOU..
i saw YOU..
i saw YOU..
and i saw YOU..
early in the morning!!

YOU just make my day!!

from far..
& i knew it's YOU..
we're in the same BOX..
but i have to act cool..
though my heart race..
if only i could turn to YOU..

dont ask me why..
maybe YOU've got that ONE THING!!

wah..
feeling one direction..blurgh..

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Hari ini dia mungkin tidak bertudung, esok lusa mungkin dia adalah yang paling IKHLAS menutup auratnya…

Hari ini dia mungkin seorang yang kaki mencarut,
esok lusa mungkin dia adalah yang paling LEMBUT bicaranya…

Hari ini dia mungkin seorang yang ingkar kepada Allah SWT,
esok lusa mungkin dia adalah yang paling istiqomah melaksanakan QIYAMULLAIL kala kita semua sedang lena…

Kita tidak pernah tahu dan tidak akan tahu.
Tugas kita bukan me’NERAKA’kan orang.
Tetapi…mengajak manusia ke jalanNYA dan saling doa mendoakan….

Jangan HINA permulaan seseorang..kerana kita TIDAK tahu bagaimana pengakhirannya..

walaupun kita BETUL,
kita tiada hak untuk menghukum & memandang rendah orang yang SALAH,
kerana suatu ketika dahulu kita juga pernah berada di tempat yang SALAH.

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i miss YOU again..

and as usual..
i hate it..

can anyone please tell my unknown-man that i miss him so much?

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harini..
pagi-pagi lagi saya dah nampak kelibat kereta AWAK..
saya dah dapat dah nombor plat kereta awak..
which is JxD 4xx5
pastu saya nampak AWAK..
walaupun hati saya berdebar-debar tapi saya tidak seEXCITED seperti biasa..

sebab saya dalam mood terkejut & sedih..
exhousemate saya NUR HIDAYAH ESHAK telah kembali ke RAHMATULLAH semalam jam 4 petang..
saya & kawan-kawan semua terkejut..
yela..
AJAL MAUT di tangan TUHAN..
kami redha..
cuma masih dalam keadaan terkejut...
ALHAMDULILLAH semua urusan pengebumian dipermudahkan..
semoga rohnya berada di kalangan orang-orang yang soleh..
amin..

saya harap sekiranya saya pulang ke pangkuanNYA sebelum sempat saya kenal AWAK..
AWAK akan baca semua benda
mengarut yang saya tulis pasal AWAK..

sesungguhnya janji ALLAH itu MUTLAK..
tidak akan AWAL atau LEWAT walau sesaat pun..

**being a stalker as my part time job is totally not me.seriously..but im doing it NOW!!WTH?!!

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